a mother when I grow up, I will never tell any of my child what a trouble it is to bring him up. I will never tell him I can't wait for him to get married and get out of the house to end the heartache he's constantly making me suffer. I will never make him believe it's true -- that he was and is a trouble and the cause of heartaches. I will never make him think that life will be easier without him. I will never let him or anyone believe that. I will defend my child.
He will never know favoritism. I will never curse his lineage with "nanti kau dah ada anak, anak kau buat macam gini, baru kau tahu perasaan aku". I will pray for the best for him for every.single.thing. Education, friends, life partner, children, food, clothes, car, house, shoes every single thing.
I will ask him about his day, whether he is okay if he looks glum, whether he has eaten, what are his plans for the day, what does he think of this and that, would he like to take a stroll with me. I will ask when he's a bumbling todd, and I will continue to ask him even when he's a tight-lipped teenager, busy at forty with two kids, in my dying breath. And he will be able to tell me his secrets knowing I will never judge but give an honest opinion and that his secrets are kept in the safest place in the world.
I will teach him to get the gems in this world, to prepare for the next. I will make sure he gets the best of both worlds. But if he fails, or make mistakes, I will tell him it's okay, you make mistakes, and I do too, but if we never learn from our mistakes, we will keep doing them and we will never be a better person. Not "kenapa kau menyusahkan orang". When he makes me angry, I will sit him down, I'll tell him what he had done wrong, and why it made me angry. Not shut him out with "dengar cakap mak nanti selamat". I will put my words to actions to exemplify. Not contradict. Not nag (too much). Not dictate. I will say sorry when I'm wrong so he will know it's okay to apologise and so he'll know how deep is my love.
I will love him and show my love the same way I do when I first hold him red and crying in my arms, til he's an image-conscious teenager, til he is forty with two kids, til my dying breath. I will not make him fear me, but respect me and love me; and so measure his actions in life with this respect and love. He will respect and love not out of obligation or pity but because it's true. So there is no fakeness in mother's day or birthday cards. There are no mixed feelings. But the simple truth. I will love him for whoever he is with all my heart and strength, in the best way I can without hoping for anything in return.
I will be a mother, a best friend, an example, a confidante, a pillar, a tough nut, a comfort, a soft spot.
Copied by Atikah Sa'ad http://et--tu.blogspot.com/2011_06_01_archive.html
Kinda true for me too. & to this person, sorry if I use your every bit of sentences. It really gonna relates to me a lot. Thank you for this (:
For today, my family & I had our lunch at Manhattan Fish Market just now! (Y)
Let's count. My first N level exams for my Mother Tongue Paper 1, Paper 2 & Listening Comprehension, DONE. Secondly, Social Studies, DONE. Thirdly, English Paper 1 & paper 2, DONE. In my opinion, my Prelims are more easier than N Level. I'm started to worry now for my rest of other subjects. :/ ESPECIALLY MATHEMATICS! Gonna study hardcore for it & less time for online. I wanna get Grade 4 for both my Mathematics & English subject & at least below 19 points so that it will be more easier for me to got into Higher Nitec. I don't choose Sec 5 cause, I CAN'T HANDLE TOO MUCH STRESS ON THEORY! I'm more to hands-on. So, ya ^^
WELL DONE TO CROWNQUEST CREW FOR THE TEACHER'S DAY PERFORMANCE JUST NOW! <3 well, we did do our best & put in our whole LOADSA efforts for the performance. Although we're very tired of trainings, practices & rehearsals for this special dance event, we still get to prove all the people that we really do have talents, & also to show the teachers that we cherish every moments & time with them :) Phewwww.. Relieved.. Everything of my task had done. But only for this one very important task I need to focus on real hard, N LEVELS.
Yeap, today got my Prelims results. Good news & bad news. The good news are, I passed all of my subjects! *jumps for joy*
But the bad news is, I only get 21 points for ELMB3. Imagine if that's N level points, I'd faint. Have to buck-up like hell already sia. No more slacking, no more hours spent on computer & onlines, must be studying!
& my first paper for my N levels are Mother Tongue @ this coming Monday (5 September) followed by Social Studies & English language. I'm getting more nervous. But I still have my confidence.
Alright time to sleep cause it's already midnight.
Well, I'm gonna talk abt yesterday. Went to 'this place' called Midas Mart at Malaysia. Mom bought me all cosmetics stuff for upcoming Hari Raya. She bought powder, liquid eye shadow, fake eye lashes, pink lip gloss, blusher & nail polishing. Not to forget, she bought me contact lenses too! The colour is Amiable green and alluring black. awesome right? & I can't wait to wear the green one! (: then, bought chocolates cause I keep on craving for it & went home. Online facebook till 2.54am just to chat with Rai and got disturbed by him! Hahaha!
Today went Angsana & bought not much things, just that I follow my auntie to buy new carpets & some food for breaking fast later.
OHH, IT'S NEARLYBREAKING FAST TIME NOW! Got to go.
